alone and empty

I am really missing Levi tonight/today. I was sick all night last night and woke up feeling sad. I been waiting all day for a phone call from my honey...still waiting.
I went to First Orlando Baptist this morning and had a great message by Dr Uth about prayer. It was an awesome message. Went out to eat with some friends from church, then when back to church tonight, to have an ugly cry.
I just need some uplifting right now. and ALOT of prayers!!

Isaiah 4:10 "So do not fear, for I am with you; 
   do not be dismayed, for I am your God.
I will strengthen you and help you;
   I will uphold you with my righteous right hand."

missed his call.

i missed his call because my arms were to asleep to wake up and wouldnt move. :(
i think my heart is just shattered right now.
I cant stop crying, :(

BEST VOICE EVER!

So Im just saying, my man as got one sexayyy voice! :) I finally got to hear him last night at one after 9 days!! TOTALLY made my whole week, day and the next 7 months sooo much better!! :) 7 minutes and 33 seconds was all we got to talk but best 7 minutes of my life!!

This is him in Maine!

Coronado Springs Resort

Looks like that will be where my new job will be at! Im going to be housekeeping there!!
Better then nothing right!? Well I just wanted to write that update in! I attached pictures of my new costume and my reaction to it, thank to my sisters skype capture skills.

Patience

"Patience- steadfast despite opposition, difficulty, or adversity"

At the beginning of the year, which I know wasn't that long ago, Pastor Jimmy Knott preached about "a word of the year." His being encouragement. Now I was sitting next to my good friend Michal Lynn and we gave each other puzzled looks and both wrote.. "word of the year?? seriously?" in our notes. Neither of us had ever heard of this "Word of the Year" business and too say the least, we were thrown for a loop. So I started to really think of what my word for 2011 should be. I wrote down a few options (self control, patience, focus, and trust) and after narrowing it down and listening to God, patience seemed to be the only one that really kept hitting me (Thanks God, he can be so rude some times!) If you have ever been to church you know the running joke about asking God for patience so I was a little worried about why this was my word... Now I consider myself a very patience person and so do all of my peers so I couldn't understand why God would wanted my word to be patience! Well, to be honest, I didnt give my word much thought after finally figuring it out. But today as I was going through my note book for church, doing my homework for RG (returning to the garden) and writing a letter to Levi, it dawned on me (light bulb). God was giving me a little hint that this year I would need patience with Him and the Marine Corp to get me through to August. That might be somewhat selfish but I felt God telling me "hellloooo Jenny, are you getting it now?!" So now that Ive had my moment, I just wanted to share my "Word of the Year" and maybe youll start thinking of yours! 

well, hello Lynx bus..

What a morning! Headed to my US government class and almost got hit by a purple Lynx bus. now sitting at home waiting for my next class. Proud of myself, finally did laundry (still working on that) and cleaned the kitchen (kinda)! But nevertheless.. I didnt hear from Levi last night, and had a horrible nights sleep thinking that I would be able too, BOOO the Marine Corp! (haha, just kidding)
Well headed to do my bible study homework!
Then off too class, then work!
Watch out for purple Lynx buses!

"Return to the Garden"

New bible study started off amazing! I so look forward to the next 6 weeks with these wonderful women! We had some of our old "Sweet RoLL" girls and now we can add a lot more! :) Kay Arthur is really going to dig in deep and put us in check! Im so excited for this!
Okay, thats all. Time to head to bed, with my ringtone turned on super super loud!
Classes in the AM and 3 hours of work in the PM (finally!!)

Goodnight!

"look at me"

Last night at 1:45 I finally "talked" to Levi, yes it was only over texting/AIM but that 10 minutes of just small talk will get me through the next 2 weeks because i believe that is the next time ill get to talk to him. Its so funny how my perception changes, I used to live for seeing my guy everyday and talking to him all  day and night long. But knowing that Levi is alright and just seeing a text from him makes my day. Im so lucky that I have his mama through all this! She actually had to call me because Jasmine was laying on my phone and I didnt hear the notification ringtone go off! 
I heard this song when it came on over my Pandora station and its definitely how I feel about Levi, 

"I would bet my life like I bet my heart 

That you were the one, baby 

I've never been so sure of anything before 

You're driving my heart crazy 

I can't hold out 

I can't hold back now 

Like i've done before 

Darling look at me 

I've fallen like a fool for you 

Darling can't you see 

I'd do anything you want me to 

I tell myself I'm in too deep 

Then I fall a little farther 

Every time you look at me 

How do you do that, babe? 

Make me feel like I'm the only girl alive for you 

I don't know what it is that makes me fall like this 

First time in your arms I knew 

The way you held me 

I knew that this could be 

What I've been waiting to find 

Darling look at me 

I've fallen like a fool for you 

Darling can't you see 

I'd do anything you want me to 

I tell myself I'm gettin in too deep 

Then I fall a little farther 

Every time you look at me"

Well Im off to apply to Victoria Secrets and then finally my bible study tonight!!!

another day.

I had class this morning at 8:30 that I didnt really want to get up for but I finally rolled myself out of bed and made it to class. Now just waiting for my nest two classes then I am done for the day! Yesterday got really rough, and I just wanted to cry myself to sleep (which, yes, I did.) I went downtown looking for a job, no girl should ever walk downtown Orlando by herself, had a homeless man beat on my window for money, which sad enough, I felt like I should go around doing that same thing. :/

I had a shift for work tonight, but no, Disney switched them without letting me know, so I missed work and got a point on my record card (ugh!) and then to top off this wonderful day, i got cussed out and yelled out by this idiot last night. I have no idea what I did to this kid but he went off and said some pretty horrible things.

Isnt life jsut dandy sometimes??

Well, I have church tonight and FINALLY!! I get to see my "sweet rolls" tomorrow! :) AHH! :)

Well class is about to start, 3 hours of intro to hospitality, fun!

Levi leaving

just some pictures his mama took! I wasnt able to be there when he actually left. Thank goodness for pictures!!

7 months...

...is the time I have to wait to be back in Levi's arms. Some people say I am crazy, getting into a relationship with a Marine right before he leaves for seven months. Maybe they are right, but I am CRAZY about Levi. Ill give you the history between us two (everyone loves a good "love story")

Two summers ago, I was working at a candy shop in Cordova Mall, Pensacola, FL. I had just graduated high school and getting ready to head to college in Saint Augustine, FL. Levi was stationed at Pensacola Correy Station. I was working and I saw Levi and his buddies walk by, and I knew I wanted him to come over and talk to me. Every time he would walk by I would smile my best smile and try to signal I wanted him to come over, boy! he was slow! It took him about the 4th or 5th time walking by that he FINALLY came over! So we talked and talked (I was still working) and found out that his mama and my aunt and cousin live in the same CITY (Redding, California) and know each other!! I instantly knew there was something very special about Levi. We started dating, but then I went off to school and figure it was alot harder to balance a new social life and school. So I broke things off with him (stupid me!) We stayed as close as we could. He came and visited me in Saint Augustine last year this time on his way up to his new duty station, Camp Lejeune, Jacksonville, NC. We stayed up till 3 in the morning and I had to be at church at 6 that morning!! But we went on with our lives but continued to talk every once in a while. I felt something very special for Levi but I was honestly terrified of giving into and giving my heart to him. I started dating someone else, in the midst of moving cities and schools. I moved here, to Orlando, FL. I ended up breaking things off with the new guy and Levi came to visit me in September and spent 3 days here! I was still scared to open up to him, so even though we had a lot of fun going to Universal Studios and hanging out around my apartment, we just remained friends. Starting the new year, I was hating love. I had been played and was just tired of getting my heart walk all over. Levi told me his was being deployed in January and asked me sometime in October to be his "penpal" and of course I would/am going to send home tons of goodies! Well Levi and I started talking almost everyday and I had to go and see him before he left, so I drove up to NC (TEN HOURS!! BY MYSELF, thats right, be proud of me!!) and spent a wonderful weekend with him and his mama! 

So thats our story. He makes me happier then I could ever be, and yes, even though seven months is a long time and its a scary time, I know I can do this! 

So I created this blog to write down what will happen over the next 7 months and hopefully it will make time go faster! 

I named it "just a dream" in hopes that this will be just a dream time and speed by!

I guess thats all for now!