Cowboys.

MMMMhmmmm!! Gotta love them! And the new bar/club the I have been going to!!
It is soo much fun and takes me back to being home! :)
Line dancing all night long and getting to look at cowboys! what beats that!?
Get y'all in the mood with some Alan Jackson! :)
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PSROm-vgVRk

ROOMMATE!!

AHHHHH!!!!

Best day ever!!! My other half Christian is going to start living with me!! AHH!! We will be rockin' it! Im so excited!!
Well besides that, life is pretty good!! School is going great and I just cant believe next week is MARCH!! What on earth happened to January and February??? Gah!
Whew, and the other thing I cant get over is how absolutely plum tired I am and I have sooo much still to do!...speaking of I guess I should get on all that.  

run-down on the low-down...

WHEW! I can finally breathe! BUSY BUSY BUSY little bee I am! Just got off work and it was crazy busy but I had alot of fun hanging out with a new friends I met from Mississippi, Grant. That boy is tooo funny!
I finally got to see my best friends from high school, who I havent seen in over a year and half on Saturday!! :)
Christian is finally coming back to Orlando tomorrow!!! Ive missed her tons!
Goodness me, Ive been so busy I cant even remember what I have done! Well this week is going to be super busy, working every night and classes on Tuesday and Thursday!!
I need some new boots, I want a new black pair, anyone know a good place??
Goodnight world.

the "new" news

Well to all my followers out there, guess I should actually let you know what has happened this past week soo here it goes.
Monday: (Valentines Day) Spent the day studying for two test and then had dinner with "the other half" (:
Tuesday: ACED both tests!
Wednesday: things with Levi ended, but its for the best, just arent meant to be.
Thursday: found out I really did ACE my government test! Then went shopping with my "tall soul mate" and Cowboys that night!
and then Friday (today) I laid in bed all day because Thursday I got bit by the meanest spider ever!!!!! Now I am sick. Wonderful.
But I would have to say I have had a pretty good week, overall. Tomorrow I FINALLY have a day of work! Then starts a very busy week of work plus school! I am ready for it!
Well, I am off to sleep! Goodnight everyone.

falling to pieces.

Ever been in such a melancholy mood for such a long period of time?? The last 5-6 days I just cant seem to pull myself out of it.
I had to decline my transfer to housekeeping because Disney couldn't guarantee me Tuesdays and Thursdays off, which I have to have off because of school. So, Im still on MSOPS (main street operations) with no hours and my bank account is having a hard time keeping money in, girl has got to eat!
I feel like everything I am doing is wrong and I just cant get things right.
I just want to be cheerful again!!!

best of intentions.

I really did have the best of intentions to wake up early and clean my apartment. But a horrible nights sleep and just a cloudy day doesnt make for the best of moods to clean. And I really did have the best of intentions to clean out my car, but I hate being outside alone.
But you have to give me some credit! I did change my sheets and make my bed, did two loads of laundry and tidied up the kitchen! But I should do more, what else do I have to do today? absolutely nothing!! Why cant I just pull it together and want to clean! ugh.

just one of those mornings...

Ever had those mornings that everything is wrong? 

I may have had one of those mornings today, DID not want to get out of bed this morning, then when I did, of course I was running behind because of my laziness, then I spilled very very hot coffee all over my left leg (left some pretty hurtful burns) then of course I didnt have my paper for class because I forgot I even had a paper due, thank you concussions. So I am sitting in US Government, which I really do enjoy this class and the professor but I have thousands of ideas and thoughts racing through my brain, as always, and just completely can not focus, and then we had a quiz, by the grace of God it was open note!! THEN something that is already hard enough..the post office. UGH! I went to mail Levi's first package and I am already feeling down about the whole thing because I want to add more to it but I also want to send it quickly so I head into "my own destruction and frustration. I have to fill out this little white piece of paper that tells the content of the box and write out his "address" well HE DOESNT LIVE IN A STATE!! and who knew you cant send aresol cans?! Well I am sorry Mr. Post Office, my boyfriend wanted axe body spray and air freshener, you gunna deny me in sending that?? Well yes they did. What a wonderful day and its not even noon yet. 

Anyways on to my thoughts for the day because I have quite a few!

So last night at bible study, just an awesome night for discussion! 

And it got me thinking about what I really listen/watch from this world and how that really messes with my mind and soul. With all the trash that is going on in the media and in everyday life I have come to used to seeing and hearing suggestive ideas that I have become use to it, numb, blind and deaf. So I walked into Publix today to replace the aresol cans you supposedly not allowed to send, ahem anyways, and you know there are those magazines "Star", Us Weekly" "Cosmo" etc. etc. So I picked up Cosmo and right there SEX! and I have bought this magazine before and all the other ones and read these articles!! I have become blind to the media and how much sex sells, take for instance the radio!! Now I love me some Rihanna but I started to reallllly LISTEN to what I had been singing along to for months, "Whats my name?" just a piece of the lyrics "not everybody knows how to work my body" Goodness, hello there. I mean think about it! After last weeks homework for Return to the Garden about how having sex with someone is a covenant with God. uhh.. let me repeat a COVENANT with GOD!! and here I am singing along with this "oh na, na, na". So hence I become deaf. Do you understand what a covenant really is?? I didnt so I researched it! A covenant is a solemn or binding agreement either written or promised between two or more parties. A PROMISE! I make a promise with God when I have sex with a guy. God created sex as, to quote Kay Arthurs mom, "a beautiful thing" and to between two people, and by having sex with other men and then breaking things off with that person I have broken a PROMISE with GOD!!! like oh my gosh wow. I have messed up and that is between God and I but to think of it like this!! This is insane!! 

Okay so I'm living a life blind and deaf. Well thats not really living! I am apart of God! My body is HIS temple, and I am just living every day DEAF AND BLIND! uhhhh.... come on now Jenny. I continuous feed my brain this trash and doing nothing about it! So here I have made myself a pact. NO MORE! My brain is Gods and so is my body! Goodbye Rihannah, its been fun, but I'm on to better and GREATER things!

hello, I'm frazzled. nice to meet you!

Frazzled. That is the adjective for today to describe my life as it stands. I just might have stole it from Mrs Emily Blackwell but I think she will understand.
It seems like I do not have control over my life right now, but then again I do. Anyone ever felt like that??
I know, I know I need to give God all my problems and just let go. but uhh.. is that easy for anyone else.. no I dont think so...
So as I am still laying in bed (yes, I am aware its 12:00) on this wonderful Wednesday I am trying to to let my brain take a break. but I dont think that will happen anytime soon. Poor little brain.
Whew. so much to do.