just one of those mornings...

Ever had those mornings that everything is wrong? 

I may have had one of those mornings today, DID not want to get out of bed this morning, then when I did, of course I was running behind because of my laziness, then I spilled very very hot coffee all over my left leg (left some pretty hurtful burns) then of course I didnt have my paper for class because I forgot I even had a paper due, thank you concussions. So I am sitting in US Government, which I really do enjoy this class and the professor but I have thousands of ideas and thoughts racing through my brain, as always, and just completely can not focus, and then we had a quiz, by the grace of God it was open note!! THEN something that is already hard enough..the post office. UGH! I went to mail Levi's first package and I am already feeling down about the whole thing because I want to add more to it but I also want to send it quickly so I head into "my own destruction and frustration. I have to fill out this little white piece of paper that tells the content of the box and write out his "address" well HE DOESNT LIVE IN A STATE!! and who knew you cant send aresol cans?! Well I am sorry Mr. Post Office, my boyfriend wanted axe body spray and air freshener, you gunna deny me in sending that?? Well yes they did. What a wonderful day and its not even noon yet. 

Anyways on to my thoughts for the day because I have quite a few!

So last night at bible study, just an awesome night for discussion! 

And it got me thinking about what I really listen/watch from this world and how that really messes with my mind and soul. With all the trash that is going on in the media and in everyday life I have come to used to seeing and hearing suggestive ideas that I have become use to it, numb, blind and deaf. So I walked into Publix today to replace the aresol cans you supposedly not allowed to send, ahem anyways, and you know there are those magazines "Star", Us Weekly" "Cosmo" etc. etc. So I picked up Cosmo and right there SEX! and I have bought this magazine before and all the other ones and read these articles!! I have become blind to the media and how much sex sells, take for instance the radio!! Now I love me some Rihanna but I started to reallllly LISTEN to what I had been singing along to for months, "Whats my name?" just a piece of the lyrics "not everybody knows how to work my body" Goodness, hello there. I mean think about it! After last weeks homework for Return to the Garden about how having sex with someone is a covenant with God. uhh.. let me repeat a COVENANT with GOD!! and here I am singing along with this "oh na, na, na". So hence I become deaf. Do you understand what a covenant really is?? I didnt so I researched it! A covenant is a solemn or binding agreement either written or promised between two or more parties. A PROMISE! I make a promise with God when I have sex with a guy. God created sex as, to quote Kay Arthurs mom, "a beautiful thing" and to between two people, and by having sex with other men and then breaking things off with that person I have broken a PROMISE with GOD!!! like oh my gosh wow. I have messed up and that is between God and I but to think of it like this!! This is insane!! 

Okay so I'm living a life blind and deaf. Well thats not really living! I am apart of God! My body is HIS temple, and I am just living every day DEAF AND BLIND! uhhhh.... come on now Jenny. I continuous feed my brain this trash and doing nothing about it! So here I have made myself a pact. NO MORE! My brain is Gods and so is my body! Goodbye Rihannah, its been fun, but I'm on to better and GREATER things!